I have been sad today. And I am finding it REALLY hard to look at girl from the healthy and personality angle rather than physical attractiveness! I can see why guys do it, its much more natural... Though it doesn't make much sense, cosidering I am not out in the world purely for sex, why would I be looking at attractivity anyway? It doesn't really matter does it!
Sigh, but I am trying. All you skinny good looking girls out there are screwed (If you want me, it seems they don't).
(full stop)
I am over feeling bad. Horrible. I want to climb through a chain link fence into a school and run away when a teacher is spotted.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Stop going insane Blair!
I want to start again, to be reborn without all my emotional stuff that has built around me! So I can make choices that won't hurt me, and listed to apparently wise advice. But than that might also mean I wouldn't know the people I love now, and i don't want that. I am rambling again. But i wish i had mever set out along this path!
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