You have a zit!

Zits are for girls who care. I have skin, but a zit for you will always be a beauty spot for me-

-Oh beauty bullshit spot! I've been your age and I know that an ugly pussball is always going to be an ugly darn pussball... But then I was a bit of a niggerpotomas

Niggerpotomas.

Fat nigger. There's still plenty of fat niggers around believe me, You don't hear it now because in the eighties people started using ph-fat.

Not so cool,

not so cool. Your zits a zit.

That is the entire fruits of today's labour. Dialougue is hard for me.

My mum asked me today whether or not my movie was portraying women in an acceptable way. wtf, of course not, its about a boy's sexual fantasies,

STOP! (I need to know how)

I guess I could move friend groups, I'm sure the Thomas-Jonny group would be happy to see me... The Robert-Harrison posse would get used to me... At a stretch I might even be welcomed into the Tiffany-Sarah group, the certainly seen to be the friendly type... And then after a while when everyone has forgotten about me (or I have forgotten about everyone?) I could return with hugs and kisses all round.

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Other people (from my observation) seem to do that kind of thing all the time. When one group gets sick of them they move on to another, and maybe another, and then come back. Like they get bored with their friends. I never get bored with my friends, but I think sometimes they might get sick of me. Maybe I should disappear forever. Maybe not.

But anyhoo, something has to shift. Change. And I feel too much still. I need to stop that. And I get really worried WHEN I MUSTN'T BECAUSE THERE IS NO POINT!!! I don't even know what I'm worried about, just that I am. And I don't want enemies. Or people not being allowed to talk to me, or people not wanting to talk to me.

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You lied. Again. I hate it when you lie to me, you most of all, because I trust you, and I give so much of myself (if not practically at least emotionally) to you, and I have done, and I give you so many second chances and every time you do the same thing and the you have the nerve and self-righteousness to tell me its my fault. Like I've wronged you and you have done nothing to me, when I have given so much to you! I am a different person now than I was when I set out. A miserable one. And don't think for a second that you are innocent because you are guilty most of all. For lying to me for so many months. And then lying after that. And now still lying. And you expect me to just put up with you. I can see why you prefer online relationships to real ones, and its because you don't have to care about your other, think about their feelings or experience their pain when you screw them up. And you can lie to them. I'm just guessing, but I think I'm right. I am prepared to forget, not forgive, I will be your friend forever if you want me to. But don't lie to me, and tell me if you want (or don't want) something, because I am sick of your disrespect, to anyone, let alone me! Right now you make me sick. But I am your friend.

I feel sick. On my birthday. This is the worst birthday I have ever had, I want to make myself happy again. And tempting myself isn't the way to do it. I need something to take my mind off things until I am prepared to face my anguish...

Any ideas?

Hmph.

Yeah, speven. I'm quite tired. yup.

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

Lights, Camera, ACTION!

IT THE TIME YOU"VE BEEN WAITING FOR

IT'S, IT'S,

THE BIGBALESOFHAY CHRISTMAS SPECIAL!!!

Well Ok, maybe it's not that special, but listen in Guys and Gals! For I am going to tell you all about my christmas!

First of all, my brother gets very exited about the whole thing. So exited that he came into my room at 6:00 and woke me up. I'm not good in the mornings and this meant that I was grumpy for most of the present unwrapping, and didn't get even slightly exited about my new phone, helicopter or PSP games. Since then I have become very exited about all of them, expecially the PSP games. My favorite ones called Me and My Katamari. A Katamari is a magical sticky ball that you roll around with and pick things up. First you start with little things like paperclips and pens, then, as you get bigger you start to pick up bigger things like printers and couches and everntually the whole study and house! Its so much fun and I have been playing it all lthe time since I got it. It's really a Japaneese game so Its pretty random, The story revolves around the King of all Cosmos and a turtle who wants a hard island. The subtitles are also pretty funny.

"Do you like my new outfit? Swimsuit Edition!"

The King of all Cosmos

Anyhoo, Its fun. My brother got a Nentendo WII so he's spent the most of his time trying to convice me to play boxing with him (I thrashed him). That's cool too.

My relatives can be really stupid sometimes, they sort of ruined Christmas day for me, but thats OK because I talked to people on my phone (even though most of them got sick of me). I was suprised how useful it was.

Boxing day was Funish. We went shopping, but I didn't buy anything (I was going to buy an Arcade Fire album but the Warehouse didn't have it as they're pretty alternative and Sounds is shut), so that ended up not so great. Played a lot of ME and My Katamari. Now I'm posting the merry christmas special on my blog.

Merry Christmas to all of you, I hope they were all fantastic ones! (even if I know some of them weren't enjoyed so much)

Before I can Think

OK. Roseanna's blog definatly was there a minute ago, but now it's gone. Oh well.

We have got a realistate agent coming over to our house this afternoon to put a price on It. We wan't to sell it for many reasons. 1. The garden is too big and takes too much time, 2. The paddocks are too small and we don't have enough grass for grazing and 3. I wan't a new room, my current one is way too small, and I can't get to my library.

This means we have to do a lot of cleaning up, or else the agent will put a stupid person price on the house. It is my job to clean up everything I have used, which is the study, my room, the me and my brother's bathroom, the DVDs, Videos and paddocks. I also have to waterblast the concrete around the house (nobody likes dead worms).

While all this is going on, I have bigger problems, like how I can't have a shower because our cleaner is here and she doesn't wan't to see me while she is cleaning our bathroom.

On top of all this I have to think about life and my role in it. I'ts an ongoing debate, but probably the one I find most important out of all my things to do. What the heck does love mean?

NeoNatzis

Congratulations to Roseanna




(She learnt html off neopets).




NEOMANIA(CS)!