The Cause of My Insomnia

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Cut me open,
And you just might find,
Your vanity,
And maybe mine

Shut me up,
And you’ll cease to explore,
The emptiness of us,
With so much more

Tell me you don’t love me,
And what would I do?
Live in this insanity?
Or die without a clue,

Of what could we have been?
(Yet what could I become?
If I stopped toying with myself,)
Now, should I wait, or should I run?!

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Ok, this is kinda wierd

Soooo... As I am at home for five days, I should probably do some blogging. I fixed the surround sound in the formal lounge! (random bit of information)

Yup...

And I played trivial pursuit, with my family... And my team one. I could actually get more questions than I thought I would, I seem to have matured in knowledge... Lots of ... today isn't there... I guess I am just tring to think of something worthwhile to say... Hang on... I wrote a poem in english... I'll just go and get it.

bee

This humble bird you see,
Lives its life out for a bee,
And though ignorance may strangle,
It always has to care

Some see it in the light of day,
While you now tend to hide your eyes,
though living though you now it finds,
it REALLY wants to care

Fickle how you disregard it so,
Even if we tried to change our world,
My life taught you to scare yourself,
But not to really care

Yeah, I am CRAP at writing poems. I have only just started and I guess the only real way to improve is to practice.

This is emotional...

I think I must be in a bad mood phase lately, I hope I exit it soon. I STILL have unaswered questions for people! And I want them answered (but first I have to ask them). Today was horrible, I am so dependant. Rosieanna is the best thing since sliced bread! Yay!

http://wistful-cherry.blogspot.com!

Expressions of Myself

Posting has lately been proving difficult, I think because I exhaust myself too much in real life to think of post ideas, but I hope that the last two posts are the start of a breakthrough.

My eye has always facinated me. (And other peoples eyes, but I don't get to look into them as often) It has such depth and shows so much expression, even despite what I am trying to show my feeling are. These are a few random photos that have intrested me, they may or may not intrest you.

And a kitten:

Its hard but I'm surviving so far! I want to see you!

imbë

Manen ná ëala taina mir-lenwa,
Elen nyarro Apanónar lá parma,

Sina nyarro elen sercë carnë,
Ná etelehta Elen mir

Elen ëala cuilë er,
An rúna mir


It doesn't translate properly but...


Why is life stretched into thin?
A mouse born without skin,

This mouse a bloody red,
Is delivering itself into death,

It lives its life out on its own,
For the fragility within.

Disscussionable!

Yes is an incredibly positive word. In fact, I have decided to place a ban on No. It's just not a helpful thing to say. No more No.

How come the comment life is so dull on this blog? And Rosieanna's! We should have discussion comments like most blogs do! And we will! Yes! But I do need disscussionable things to write... So if anyone has any ideas feel free to comment! Lets get this party started!

I guess exeptions prove the rules... But love still sways boundries (And I love you)

I guess a post is necessary after that...

But just a random thought, the template of a blog can completely change the way its content is viewed. If, for example, your blog has a purply skin with swirls and black all over it the words and messages contained within are automatically perceived to be troubled and dark, whereas if your skin is more of a white the perception changes to one of clean and basic. (But I guess ultimately the content can swing it either way)

Today has so far been surprisingly carefree, as I seem to have successfully shifted all of my responsibilities off of me (where they ultimately belong), and onto others who (despite it being the fairest way for them to decide on actions), are perhaps less prepared. However, an underlying sense of dread still remains, for this blissful interlude cannot last forever. (How is that for a message?)

Ha. I like to think of myself as a stable person who can judge rationally despite outside circumstances, but you have succeeded in pissing me off.

THIS TEMPLATE SUCKS

I NEED A KNEW ONE

AND I'LL GET BACK TO YOU WHEN I HAVE ONE

Suggest a post idea to me. I'm all out of brain cells.

I feel like destroying things. Today has been challenging, and leaves me feeling hopless. But hold onto hope I must. I'll do a real blog post when I feel like it, so stop nagging me

I'm not in the mood

Ok the marrage thing was WAY to overhyped.

My week.

Was up and down. it started off really well, but then got worse as my convictions

developed. had so much fun on saterday! In a very different way one of the best days of my life! And it made me happy until wednsday, when i got in trouble and nearly suspended. That wasn't fun, but I'm used to it by now! I am so happy! This is not a good time for me to write a blog post but it's been ages so I will write one anyway.

'More tears are shed over answered tears that unanswered ones' TRUMAN CAPOTE

So true.